It’s been 3 years, my dear Emma, and I still miss you every day. I miss holding you, working with you, and not being able to take a photo of you. Even though I have a million or so pictures of you, it is not enough. Taking photos of you made me so happy, and you loved being photographed.
You may not be here but you are in our hearts and minds every day. Your photos are hanging where they were the last time you were at home, your nose work ribbons and certificates are framed so we can all see them. Your bunny is on the night table by the bed, and all your other belongings are saved in your special box. I talk about you to your sisters all the time.
I miss traveling with you. You loved to travel so much. In your twelve short years, you went to so many places and saw so many things. Madison and Olivia have your love of travel and they are seeing a lot of the USA these days and are loving it. If only you could come along with us.
Madison always reminds me of you. Her dad, your half brother, left a part of you in her. She is serious like you, loves people, and is such a happy girl. I’m lucky to have her to remind me of you every day, but it also makes me sad because it reminds me of how much I miss you.
You sent me Olivia, I know that. Her litter was unplanned and she is a complete love child. She is the sports dog I always wanted and she is such a lover too. Her personality is nothing like yours but you know what I need and you sent her to me. Every time I go to nose work trials, I cry on the drive thinking of you, and I’ve cried a lot because Olivia has earned the title I always wanted for us.
Hopefully you and Katie are together having fun as you did here. The two of you were such an odd couple, but a great pair. I miss you both, the connections we had having lived in Germany together, is something no one else can understand. The three of us had some Grand adventures on two continents.
You know I talk to you all the time. You see my tears, and hopefully one day I will have more smiles for you than tears. This day three years ago devastated me. I never imagined I would lose you that day and I still can’t believe it happened. If only I could hold you and whisper into your beautiful ears how much I love you just one more time. It will have to wait until we meet again, but until then, know you are with me and in my heart forever. Love, Mom